In the name of Love!

With two little people that we made and a wonderful 84 year old Grandmother who helped make me, my husband and our 4 year old Burnese Mountain Dog, life is never dull. I obviously am the caretaker and I have to tell you that I feel as though I am truly being blessed right now (in a mind losing, energy sucking, fly paper feeling sort of way:) )

Really, we were able to spend yesterday at Walmart and then at home putting up the Christmas tree and when it was time for bed, my 3 year old and 19 month old little girls were both in the mood to not be in bed... surprise surprise! Instead of wanting to scream my lungs out with frustration, I took the opportunity to hold the little one and wrap my legs around the other on the couch, stare into the white lights on the tree, smell the fresh pine scent, and cherrish the young life in my arms (and legs). Life is precious, the lives we make, the breaths we take and the moments that take our breath away. I thought of a friend of mine who recently lost her 10 month old, and while tears rolled down my cheeks, I thought how can I "get the most out of this moment, suck it all in, hold on so tight?" What can you do? How do you rellish, cherrish, enjoy, memorize, indulge and all those other things that older people tell you to do when you are complaining?

Life is today, this morning, tonight. An everchanging series of interactions, intended actions, reactions, silence, noise, thoughts, words, emotions, exertions, moments..... all linked together.

As I was washing my grandmothers hair in the sink today, my back was aching, my daughter was whining, the dog was barking, and I just wanted to sit down and stop being bothered. I thought that I will be old one day and I hope that my daughter or granddaughter will love me enough to wash my hair, put up with my habits and noises, and let me experience life with them. It's all for love!